the week in review.

what a long, crazy week it's been!   

on Monday, i was just...over it.  over the feeling bad all the time.  over the fact that eating is a chore.  when you can't taste anything, it is hard to eat.  over having no energy and not being able to do anything.  just a general frustration about all of it.  there was whining.  there were tears.  there was praying/pleading/begging/crying out..."Lord be with me.  be with me.  please.  just be with me.  Lord.  be. with. me."  it was a desperate cry.  i was just...spent.

people, God is so very good.

Tuesday is blood count day.  or, as i call it, the day i get quarantined for the next week!  i woke up with a much better attitude and feeling much better than the day before.  forgot to mention that i had a wicked bad head cold.  sneezing, head full o' snot, headache...the whole nine yards.  that was already a plus!  went in and had blood drawn and came on home to wait for the call with the same ol' instructions to "stay away from crowds" and the like.  well, that call never came!  'cause they don't call if your results are decent.  woooohooooooo!  i was free for the week!  but i had a COLD.  how in the world could i not get a call when i have a cold?!?  my Love said i should call them and check.  um, NOPE!  ;o)  AND we got pizza for supper and i chowed down!

Wednesday i felt even better than the day before!  and i went back to work!  see, i haven't been cleaning houses since my surgery way back in August.  wasn't allowed so as not to move/shift the ol' expanders.  plus, it freakin' hurt and was super stiff for quite a while!  my right arm just ain't what it used to be.  i used to be able to do 4 houses in one day!  i was tired and my back hurt by the time i got done but it was really nothing.  now i'm doing 2 houses on my off treatment chemo weeks and only doing 1 a day.  yeah, it's a good dang thing i spread them out!  i am SO out of practice!  it took forever to get that one house done!  i had to take frequent rest breaks and even so, was out of breath for at least 20 minutes after i got finished.  i was exhausted!  and it was GREAT.  i felt accomplished.  like i actually DID something. 

on Thursday i woke up and my arm was sore.  yeah, my "vacuuming arm" was so out of practice it was sore!  i found that quite funny.  i've vacuumed around my house but my house is pretty small!  oh, and have i mentioned that i LOVE to vacuum?  yeah.  LOVE it.  especially with a really good vacuum cleaner.  yes, i'm weird.  i know we've established that part!  anyway, i had another house to do.  went and did it with the same frequent rest breaks as the day before.  worked up a good appetite, too!  so i chowed down a good lunch.  seriously, y'all.  it is so great to get back to some sort of "normalcy"! 

also on Thursday, we found out that one of my 3846486 doctors had given us a "courtesy discount" bringing our balance to ZERO.  now, there was quite the chunk o' change left even after what insurance paid.  what doctor does that?!?  i mean, it's just crazy.  we were shocked!  talk about blessing, y'all.  big.  HUGE.

and today?  well, today my arm and my abs are sore.  who knew you used your abs when you clean?  ha!  but it's okay.  i'm feeling great!  this cold is still lingering on and has now turned into an annoying little cough thing.  but again, it's okay.  i'm recharged.  turns out, i *can* do this!  but definitely not by myself...God is with me.  He. is. with. me.  He's with me!