insomnia.

ah, insomnia.  my old nemesis.  guess this means things are getting back to "normal"?  well, if "normal" means you're back...i don't want it!  go away!

well, since i'm still awake i reckon i'll type a bit.  i've got stuff on my mind.  now i warn you, this is gonna be random.  like, all these thoughts probably ain't gonna go together at all.  yes, i said ain't.  sue me!  i'm warning you though...you won't get much!  but it's got to be done.  so maybe i can flippin' SLEEP already!

-when this losing hair business started there was a question about nose hairs.  as in, "i wonder if my nose hair will fall out, too?"  the answer?  yes.  but not aaaallll of it.  just a good bit.  and now you know.  aren't you just so glad?  ha! 

-so here's the deal.  make fun of my eyebrows.  or lack thereof!  make fun of...well, whatever else you can find to make fun of.  but PLEASE don't make fun of the fact that i have no hair.  by now we all know how very, extremely attached i was to my hair.  if you don't, you haven't been reading.  shame on you!  ;o)  i am VERY sensitive about the fact that i have none/VERY little now.  so please don't make fun of it, mkay?  thanks.  also, i'm somewhat convinced that at least a little bit of my brains were in my hair.  kinda like Samson's strength?  yeah.  i need to grow some hair asap 'cause i am STUPID. 

-went to see the plastic surgeon today.  surgery to swap out the "fake" fake boobs and get my "real" fake boobs better known as "the foobs" will either be Feb 20 or Mar 6 depending on the doctor's schedule.  personally i'd like to go ahead in Feb but i reckon the doc deserves a vacation day or two.  i guess.  anyway, i'm nervous but ready.  does that even make any sense?!? 

-my fingers and toes are hurting again.  i'm attributing it to the last chemo treatment.  jerk.

-my tummy hurts.  i don't think that's helping the insomnia issue.  i had fajita nachos for supper.  so good!  and a hunk of chocolate cake for dessert.  no way can it be the cake's fault...chocolate and i are goooood friends again.  yahoo!!


uh oh.  a yawn!  maybe that means i'm ready for some sleepy time?  i hope so!

hey, i never said the stuff on my mind was deep, meaningful stuff!  no promises were made here!

one thing i'm sure of is that this insomnia is NOT brought to me by worry.  i spent many, MANY a night at the beginning of all this awake with worry.  i have worrywart issues, obvi.  thankfully, my God took care of all of that.  He finally convinced my to let. it. go.  He's pretty darn awesome.

good night sweet dreams, y'all.